Scared to be alone

So I asked for this,.. I wanted this... I literally beg my husband for weeks for a day to myself. But now that the day is set for Sunday why do I not want it anymore? It’s not that I don’t want it but I don’t know how to be alone anymore . I don’t know when the last time I’ve spent a entire day without my husband or kids are mom. How is it to be alone. Why am I all of a sudden scared.... what will I talk to strangers about, will strangers even talk to me without the cuteness of my kids. How will I engage with other moms when they have there kids with them.. what will my hands physically do when there not pushing a stroller or holding kids hands? My anxiety had kicked in and now i don’t want to be alone... I need to be alone but at the same time I can’t... I don’t want to anymore... where would I even go ? I don’t know what it is to shop for myself anymore ... like what pants size am I even? Besides I’m trying to devlutter no need for new things. Then there’s target but it’s far and once again I don’t need anything. I could go see a movie but there’s no movie I want to see plus I’m scared to be alone ... ahhhh. Is this even normal? Is this a normal stay at home mom feeling? 🐣🐣🐣🐣 . . . #letthembelittle #honestmommin#momboss #motherhood#motherhoodunplugged#childhoodunplugged #momblog#momblogger #raisinglittles#raisingmytribe #motherhoodrising#motherhoodsimplified#parentingblogger #momsofig#momsofinsta #thehappynow#instakid #littlepiecesofchildhood#momsofinstagram #momlife #mom#bloggerlife #momitforward#littleandbrave #storytellingmama#designer #designermom#momoffour #momofboys#momofgirls